I can do it... right?!

So despite my disappointing showing during this 10-pound challenge, the Kamloops Fit Centre has KINDLY agreed to let me give it another shot. So this time, I need to make a REAL commitment... not a fluffy, goal-less, nonchalant one but a REAL one.

I'm thinking about making a list of the reasons I want to lose weight, a list of specific goals, and some of the things I'm willing to give up to make it happen. You're probably thinking, 'umm... didn't you do that months ago?' (maybe like the rest of you did!)... and the answer is a big fat "NOPE!"

I'm always good at the 'beginning' of something... whether it's a competition, learning a new skill, or taking up a new hobby. But then I get bored and give up on things REALLY easily. It's one part of my personality that sometimes irks me. In some ways, it's a trait that's been good to me... I've made awesome career moves and seen really unique places around the world, because my boredom and need for new challenges have led me to those things. But in this case, as evidenced by my weight GAIN the past two months, it hasn't helped me out so much ;)

I realized today, when fellow contestants Carly and Anita joined Lorilee and I for our Midday segment, that I haven't really made the lifestyle changes that are necessary to keep the weight off. As Carly talked about the positive changes she's made and has been sticking to, it really hit me that I just lost a bunch of weight last winter and then went right back to some of my old habits by spring.

The fitness part, I love... that's the only thing that's stayed consistent. It's the eating part that is SO hard for me. So now comes 'The List.' What am I going to give up? I hate to say it... but I'm afraid I have to give up wine. And chocolate. And cheese. And that is TERRIFYING ;)

See, I DID give up all those things last fall... but over the past few months, they have slowly creeped their way back in. They need to get back out... and STAY OUT! I wish I was one of those lovely people, who say 'everything in moderation' and eat a morsel of chocolate and let it go without eating the rest of the bar. I am not one of those people.

But maybe that's another issue. Maybe it's bad to keep telling yourself you're one way or the other. Maybe it's time I grow a spine and MAKE THE CHOICE to only allow those moderate indulgences when I've worked hard that day for them.

It's so logical... but why is it so hard?!?!?!!!! :)