So as promised, I got back on the bandwagon today. Maybe I wasn't perfect with my food (I ate about a zillion fresh green grapes tonight, they were SO good!!!)... but I worked out hard!!
I raced to the gym after work and got a good half-hour run on the treadmill in before my session with trainer Amy. Also joining us was my 'better half' at the gym... my training partner Tracy. There was a THIRD Tracy during the last round, and oddly enough, we all liked training at the same time of day... so we'd work out together constantly... eventually becoming the "Tracy Trifecta." Now we are the... uhhhh... hmmm... "Tracy Squared?" The "Tracy Twosome?" ...thoughts, Tracy Z? :)
Anyhoo, Amy kicked our BUTTS tonight. You know how most days, the training session goes SO fast because it's only half an hour and it's so fast-paced? Well EVERY once in awhile you get that heinous session where it feels like you've been at it for two hours, and you're sweating and groaning, and you think every exercise is the last one until she starts demonstrating ANOTHER one and ANOTHER one... you get the picture. Today was that day for me! Working the legs always kills me... and that Amy always goes nuts with the squats n' lunges. But that's why we love her!!! Gotta get that butt lookin' good! :)
Backtracking to that run on the treadmill... trainer Lorilee was working that nasty stairclimber as I ran. P.S... you will NEVER see me on the stairclimber... I hate that thing! Anyway, I digress. I confessed to her that I just haven't been "feeling it" this time around... but it seems to be a mood that extends to other parts of my life right now. I feel a bit bored at work... bored in my personal life... I dumped a pottery class that I just didn't have time for, or much interest in anymore... etc. And she told me that whatever is nagging me (and that I probably know what it is) is going to weigh on me and bring me down until I face it and address it.
She's totally right... I know exactly what's "eating" me... but HOW do I address it? I'm the type of person who has a hard time talking about what's bothering me, or confronting the people who are doing the bothering. I guess I've always been a bit like that... but I think it's gotten worse lately. I think when you have a really public job, you guard your privacy so much more. You work really hard in your brain to protect that little bubble you've created for yourself. So how do you balance that with the need to open up, so you can move forward?
I'm workin' on it... will let you know what I come up with.
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Yes, every day when I walk through the doors and see Amy, I think "YES, she's gonna work us so hard" and then I think, " oh god, she's gonna work us so hard!" It's always an amazing workout with Amy ! When we were finishing up yesterday on the mats after our work out with Amy, I said, I think i'm gonna puke... someone giggled... I wasn't kidding. :) But it's good, I appreciate how hard she works us.
I can relate to the idea of being bored, except for me, it's not boredom, it's lack of direction. I've made the decision to stay home with my 13 month old until he's ready to go to school. I used to be all about work, and all of my goals were work related. At the moment,without that, I feel that I lack direction, and need some personal goals. I used to think being thin was a goal, which led me to the biggest loser, but i've realized the goal has to be fitness not body shape or I can't sustain it.
Regarding dealing with the things that are bothering you, you've probably already taken a step in the right direction just by verbalizing it. Good luck T !
Can we get Tracy squared T-shirts??!!?? haha
thanks for contributing, T2! hahaha :) and i'm totally down for t-shirts... perhaps pink ones? :)
maybe you could come up with a fun side project that might be feasible while you're home with your adorable baby (saw the video you posted of him running, too cute!)... it could be work-related or totally not... there are always those things we say we would LOVE to try, if only we had the time and didn't have to go to work ;) ya know?
i know doing this blog has become a fun side project for me!! :)
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